deconversion

With apologies to Seinfeld, this post is about nothing.

What I mean is nothing happened.

What I mean is a couple of weeks ago I realized that nothing was happening to me. You see, about a year ago I stopped tithing because of suspicion that the money was being mis-handled. Actually, I thought the pastor was using it for his personal slush fund, but that's another story. Then I stopped attending services regularly, I would go once in a while, but not every week like I used to. Then I decided I needed to figure out what I really believe and be true to it. So, I started researching things on the internet (which is how I found this site) and realized I wasn't the first person to go through this. THEN I stopped referring to myself as a christian. I'm still in limbo about what label to use, but that too, is another story.

And through all of this - nothing.

I was taught that if I didn't tithe, basically God would get it some other way. My car would break down, I would get sick, lose my job, etc, etc. Nothing.

I was taught if I didn't regularly attend church bad things would happen. Nothing.

I was taught that if I "denied Christ" and walked away, God would get me. Nothing.

Which made me wonder: Is God there anyway?

Or was I afraid of...

Nothing.

Reminds me of a joke headline: "Nothing: Is it Really 'Something'?"

Just out of curiousity, what kind of church did you go to?

Do they have a website?

D,

Sorry, I don't know why I never answered your question.

I have a varied church history. I attended fundamentalist, independent Baptist churches for the first 8-10 years I was a Christian. Then I got "filled with the spirit" so I had to leave the Baptist church because they didn't like me clapping during the song service-really.

I settled on and became a minister in the Assemblies of God churches for about another 10 years. Due to some negative experiences as a minister, I stopped attending church for about 2 years.

Then a friend invited my wife and me to visit a messianic synagogue. We attended there for the last 6 years. Since you asked, their web site is www.bethyeshua.com

In all my experiences, I was very happy at first. Then I began to take a closer look at doctrine vs. practice. In each case, things didn't add up. The experience at Beth Yeshua was the last straw. I HAD to find the truth.

I've posted about it elsewhere on this site if your interested.