Dec
31st
The year in review
By Infidel
Let's see, I started out the year a serious believer in Jesus
Christ and end the year a near atheist. Does anyone see a problem
here?
Not really. I suppose all of us have gone through this or we wouldn't frequent this site. But it really is quite something when I think about it.
I knew this would be a year of change for me. I don't know why I knew it, but I did. I was so sure that I told my wife in January that this year I was going to be true to myself and not try to be something I'm not.
It's funny, but this began with me admitting to myself and accepting the fact that I am a pessimist. So I get really pissed when people tell me I have to be happy all the time, look on the bright side, etc, etc. I spent all my adult life trying to do that and it just didn't work. I'm not wired that way.
Well, this morphed into my spiritual life and trying to: A) figure out what I truly believe and B) trying to be true to that belief. And all of that led, among other places, here!
I don't think I've mentioned this before, but the funny thing (to me anyway) is that I wound up on this site via a web search. Thanks Google! Oh, what was I searching? I was searching for sites that could help me honestly prove or disprove the bible. I had decided to critically read the bible and validate the various stories in it with extra-biblical sources. One of the hits was from somebody's post on this site. I clicked it, read some of the testimonials and the rest, as they say, is history!
Oh, how refreshing it was to find that I was not the first or only person to have doubts and questions! I really appreciate(d) that I wasn't and am not treated like an idiot on this site because I believe(d) in god. I appreciate the fact that the regulars on this site have been or are going through the same things I am. All of the doubts, fears, questions, back and forth, belief in god, disbelief in god, being pulled in a thousand directions, dealing with family, friends, etc. I feel like I'm in an AA group! What do we call ourselves FBAs (former believers anonymous)? I like "The d-Cs" personally.
So to all of my formerly believing friends, a very Happy New Year! I look forward to personal growth, peace and maybe a little prosperity for all of us!
Not really. I suppose all of us have gone through this or we wouldn't frequent this site. But it really is quite something when I think about it.
I knew this would be a year of change for me. I don't know why I knew it, but I did. I was so sure that I told my wife in January that this year I was going to be true to myself and not try to be something I'm not.
It's funny, but this began with me admitting to myself and accepting the fact that I am a pessimist. So I get really pissed when people tell me I have to be happy all the time, look on the bright side, etc, etc. I spent all my adult life trying to do that and it just didn't work. I'm not wired that way.
Well, this morphed into my spiritual life and trying to: A) figure out what I truly believe and B) trying to be true to that belief. And all of that led, among other places, here!
I don't think I've mentioned this before, but the funny thing (to me anyway) is that I wound up on this site via a web search. Thanks Google! Oh, what was I searching? I was searching for sites that could help me honestly prove or disprove the bible. I had decided to critically read the bible and validate the various stories in it with extra-biblical sources. One of the hits was from somebody's post on this site. I clicked it, read some of the testimonials and the rest, as they say, is history!
Oh, how refreshing it was to find that I was not the first or only person to have doubts and questions! I really appreciate(d) that I wasn't and am not treated like an idiot on this site because I believe(d) in god. I appreciate the fact that the regulars on this site have been or are going through the same things I am. All of the doubts, fears, questions, back and forth, belief in god, disbelief in god, being pulled in a thousand directions, dealing with family, friends, etc. I feel like I'm in an AA group! What do we call ourselves FBAs (former believers anonymous)? I like "The d-Cs" personally.
So to all of my formerly believing friends, a very Happy New Year! I look forward to personal growth, peace and maybe a little prosperity for all of us!
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