deconversion

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I'm 24, PROUDLY bisexual, PROUDLY asatru pagan, and PROUDLY engaged, and quite monogamously so, to my hilarious gamer nerd atheist fiance Scott. I am going to school for psychology, and want to be a counselor for GLBT youth.

I was raised a christian, of the extreme missionary type, and was training as a missionary when I left the church. I considered myself ex-gay, and wanted to work with Exodus ministries. I had accepted that it was likely I would never marry, because my same-sex attraction was so great and so addicting I was not sure I would find someone who would understand. I was 19 when I left. I'll explain the process later in a very long blog. :)

Many things have changed, and all for the better. I consider my teenage years to be the absolute worst time in my life and I could NEVER go back. I feel as though my mind were played with, I feel I've been manipulated and brainwashed. I feel as though I were duped and lied to. And I can only hate an organization, because the individuals didn't mean to.

When I left christianity, it was like a fog all around me lifted, and I could finally enjoy life and be myself. I felt like a weight was taken off my shoulders and I no longer felt bad for loving someone or thinking for myself.

So in essence, that's why I'm here. Further un-brainwashing. Further de-conversion.